releaf

You're laughing, smiling, and happy again. It worked!

afk

You think I'm a lazy bum who's not doing anything. Well guess what, you couldn't be farther away from the truth

things change

you aren't as happy or peppy as you were yesterday.
Yesterday you were practically crawling all over me.
Yesterday you were fawning over me.
Today it's like something changed... or maybe last night. But since I checked back today, things have been different. you seem distraught...


i've been itching a lot lately... i think bed bugs got in.

r

for the last hour and a half perhaps, a vision that i keep seeing you walk down a hallway...

r

there's some corridor in the shape of a "U", but square. at first, i'm looking through a fish-eye lens. a door swings open at the end of a passageway to my right... you're standing there, kind of spooked look on your face, like a deer, you don't really seem to see me, but come down the hallway, turn right, pass me, make another right down the passageway to the left. you seem a little worried, looking for a way out. you disappear into shadows, and instantly reappear at the door on the other side. i notice the walls change.... at one point they're like the dungeon of a 16th century castle in Europe, at another they seem to belong to an 18th century New England estate...

i first noticed this thing when i checked up on that feeling of being close to you that I had been experiencing the last few days... and when i went to check up on it, so to speak, i could see you but you weren't really present... because you were looking for a way out. it was like you were trapped in some kind of labyrinth or mind game..

now somehow i am here too, but not looking for a way out necessarily... because I see you running in circles here, you come in one door, over yonder, at the end of the hallway over there, and you walk on down the line, and you step into this hallway, and walk on by, and step into that other hallway over there on the left side, and walk on into those shadows, and disappear, and reappear at the door again... you're looking for someone or something to positively interrupt your vibrational state... or something...

it's like i saw it today, waiting for soup downtown, a little girl running around a statue, and getting more excited and rambunctious if a nice guy approached. and each time she went around she counted, and each time she counted, she timed it so she would be taking a step right in front of a nice guy, each with a number, in the order of how nice they appear.

the way she said "nine" like singing it with a sigh while, hop scotching in front of me, perhaps onto some imaginary magical button on the ground, that sheds some light onto the day of whoever is standing there... whoever is "nine."

then off she went, dancing singing along, then some ancient old grandpa, trying to show me up, quick as a whip, throws his arms in the air or something, and she hops by him, and softly whispers loudly, singing "ten!" in the slowest motion undetectable.

So here we are in this "U" shaped hallway, Ray. I got you to snap out of being somewhat lost and depressed. We're still stuck here ofc, because this is the reality that binds us, it is the space between us... now you're all "lah lah lah" you don't care, that's ok. we can each go do our own things, I just wanted to make sure you were here, and doing fine.

Love ya,